Lately I have been Twitting a lot in Hebrew, mainly due to general lack of energy and specific need of support from local buddies. So here is a little life update, for those of you who read my blog but don't really know me.
My mother, with whom I am living again these past few years, has metastatic lung cancer. She has been on an amazing drug called Tarceva for the past year. For the first 9 months it had reduced her tumor, but now the tumor is growing again and yesterday the Health Maintenance Organization informed her that they are not going to finance the 4000$ the drug costs per month anymore. In short - they decided it's time for her to die already.
Obviously, we are shocked, full of rage and depressed. We have a lot of work ahead of us, in terms of appealing the HMO's decision, seeing more doctors and getting second opinions, asking different people for help, and so on. At this point in time, I am doing worse than my mom, cause she saw it coming and I didn't. She has been going through what I am going through now last week, she sure hid it well.
I am doing my best to take care of myself and mom. If nothing changes, she will stop taking Tarceva in a few days and start deteriorating. I don't know what exactly will happen and how long it will take, but there is not going to be a happy ending here.
Obviously, I am not in a very creative mood - hence the lack of interesting\funny posts and projects. I haven't been able to make a puppet in a few weeks now. Hopefully, we will get some good news soon and I will be able to recoup quickly. If not - well, that's life for you. I am aching almost more than I can bear, but at least I get to spend as much time as I can with my dear, beloved, sweet, silly, funny and wise mother. This is definitely a time I will treasure for the rest of my life. It's getting through the next few months that is the problem. Only God knows where I get strength to hang on. Well, not true. Friends, support, random acts of kindness, a silly Flutterbutt here and a silly joke there. If it weren't for love and humor, we would all be doomed.
Please keep my mom and me in your prayers, if you are the praying type. I hope I will not lose my followers because of this hard time. I am sure I will return to my old (or rather, a new and improved) cheerful self when this temporary hell is all over.